I didn’t cry when my daughter went to kindergarten for the first time last Monday. We had already met the teacher. She had been in preschool for years, and during the first week, she would only be in school half days. So, we were ready.
Today, however, her first day in school all day (including after-school care), I find myself anxious, wanting to run non-stop all the way to her and scoop her in my arms and never let go.
As a parent, we raise our children with the purpose to make them independent, to eventually let them go lead their own lives. It’s becoming more real now. She’ll need me less and less and that makes me sad.
Although I can’t stop her from needing me less, what I can do is make sure that I am the type of mommy who she’ll always want to run back to when she does need me. And, hopefully, she’ll let me run to her as well, because I’ll always need my baby girl.